Feeling so impotent ...

My sister's husband has lung cancer. He has had it for the past 18 months. He is only 46 years old and a non-smoker (at least since high school!). They live 3000 miles away. Or rather I live that far from them. He is struggling this week and I can't do anything about it. I can't cook them dinner, I can't help watch the kids, I can't drive Chelsey to the airport. I don't have oodles of money to hire people to do those things for me. I have felt guilty about having my very healthy and ravenous family around me this Christmas. We did a fairly small Christmas this year compared to some years, but it was full of family and no major emotional catastrophies (or ER visits.)

I have decided to make her a necklace of beads. It may be dumb and I am not very experienced at such things, but is is something I can do and she will know that I spent time thinking of her and weaving good thoughts and hopes for her into the selection of beads.